There’s always time for gratitude

Spoiler alert: Auggie gave us another scare this week, but instead of the worst possible news, it turns out he is experiencing the aches and pains of a middle-aged athlete.

You know how difficult it can be when you’re waiting for someone’s medical diagnosis. You flip restlessly through a book, if you have one, you play games on your phone, if you do that sort of thing, or you ruminate madly about worst case/best case scenarios. It’s important to find something to do.

As I waited for the surgeon’s diagnosis, there was an odd little stand with a drawer in the exam room. I had been in this room at the hospital before, and it suddenly occurred to me that I had never looked in this drawer. Part of it, maybe, was just knowing it was none of my business. But then it occurred to me that maybe it had something meant to be helpful: a pack of tissues, a roll of lifesavers, hand sanitizer, Gideon’s Bible…so I opened it. It was disappointingly, boringly empty.

I had come equipped to wait, so of course I had paper and pen, and I was very much in need of a distraction. So for some reason it occurred to me to do this. Too bad I didn’t have a packet of candy or something to add. I wonder how long it will take someone to find it—someone else who’s worried, bored, and needs distraction.

Auggie was a good boy, but he’s learned to be nervous about these places. Luckily, happily, joyfully, all was well, and we went home together, armed with a little bottle of pain pills. We played ball when we got there.

In honor of George Washington

Today is George Washington’s birthday. He was a flawed human being, but also a great man. I hope we will all take a moment today to recognize his service to Divine Providence, in providing us with a country in which we can argue about his integrity, fight for freedom, and make the changes necessary to ensure that All Men—and Women—Are Created Equal. This country is a project, not a completed act of perfection. We have George Washington to thank for that. We owe it to ourselves and to posterity to ensure that his history—warts and all—is taught and remembered.

Today, may I suggest we all sit down for half an hour and read Washington’s Farewell Address which is a reminder and an admonishment to all Americans.

Even saints need comfort

Most of the time Auggie is not a demonstrative dog. He is a very high energy personality who is always on high alert for opportunities to go outside. He has a hair trigger that is activated by our slightest movements. Sometimes it can be a bit much, and I have to continually work to encourage him not to break out in a wild frenzy of barking when I am merely opening the closet to get something out of a coat pocket. His heedlessness in these moments can be dangerous, and I am recovering from a bone bruise on my knee after the combination of his exuberance with my tenacity flung me to the stone floor. Auggie didn’t even look back.

But you would be mistaken to think Auggie does not love hard and deeply. He is wired to run at full speed, and nothing can change that. But he is also incredibly gentle and sweet. I never worry about him meeting a stranger, or being around a child or a puppy. He will sit quite patiently with someone who wants to pet him, and he gives lovely little nose kisses while looking straight into your eyes. Auggie is very focussed on eye contact, and when we’re playing I take off my sunglasses so we can look deeply into each other’s eyes.

When we come in to wash the mud off—after what we call his “slow walk of doom”back to the house—he obediently gets into the shower, and patiently lifts each paw for me to clean without my having to ask. Often when I am bending over him to spray his underside, he reaches up and gives me a gentle kiss.

Sometimes I think he feels a bit lonely or jealous because snuggly, low-key Eli always asks for—and gets—the love he needs. And Eli is both sly and pushy about inserting himself between Auggie and an object of mutual desire, making himself into a giant, furry wedge. It can be difficult to divide attention exactly. So when Auggie asks for attention, I notice.

Last night, Auggie asked. Instead of settling in at the foot of the bed, he was waiting for me with his head on my pillow. He made room for me, and when I was settled, he nestled in, molding the shape of his body to mine, his head resting on my leg. Later he moved up so I could keep my hand on his back. He stayed that way all night, comforting and being comforted.

He is a very good dog.

St. Augustine, Foe of Coyote Pagans

Just thinking

One of the things I love about sunrise is the giddy sense it gives me to contemplate that while it seems the sun is racing into the sky, it is we who are spinning through space at 67,000 mph (or so) while the sun stands still. At the same time, the earth is spinning on its axis, its mass creating the force of gravity to keep everything firmly grounded.

Meanwhile, tiny particles are spinning in their own miniature cosmos forming everything around us, even ourselves.

This morning the heavy fog was frozen on the branches of the trees, and an icy mist still hung in the air. The sun rose neon pink, turning the mists purple. All the invisible forces, large and small, at every moment, come together to make it possible for a human being—and her dogs— to sit here and think.

You don’t believe in miracles?

Remembering Abraham Lincoln

Today is Abraham Lincoln’s birthday. It bothers me that we have lumped Lincoln’s and Washington’s birthday’s into one generic Presidents’ Day. They were not generic men; each in their particular ways were fathers of new eras in the American experiment. It bothers me still further, that at a recent trip to an elementary school, even the third graders didn’t know who Lincoln was, or recognize that distinctive profile. It’s a subject simple enough for kindergarteners, but we seem to assume that children are incapable of learning things these days.

As a former teacher—and lifelong admirer of President Lincoln—I consider the abandonment of history a disgrace to our schools. Not to mention the abandonment of grammar, literature, and civics and…just reading. If you don’t believe me, look at the statistics. I’ll wait.

Children are sponges. They love knowing things, and their brains are programmed to memorize facts. It’s what human beings are meant to do. The education establishment dismisses memorization as mere rote learning—as if memorizing is somehow wrong. But I see memorization both as a gift and as the proper preparation for thinking. And at any rate, it would be a nice start.

I saw this close-up and personally when I was helping my grandson with his algebra this fall. How do you factor if you haven’t (in second grade) memorized the multiplication tables? It’s a form of rote learning that forms the facility for all the mathematics that follows.

Literature, too, is aided by youthful memorization. Children may not be ready to grasp the depths of meaning or the literary allusions in a memorized poem. But they internalize everything. Once memorized, the poem belongs to them in their own personal library to be recalled at will, or to arise unbidden at an apposite moment. And because it is theirs, their understanding gradually develops as they mature. They internalize the rhythms, too, and those old lines roll up like waves in the unconscious, building a sense for the language and its music. These things form good writers and appreciative readers, and create a common cultural underpinning that bonds us as human beings.

And history—that rhythm of ascent and failure that we repeat as civilizations and as individuals—begins with facts. Who did that? When was that? What happened first? What happened next? It’s only armed with these facts that we can form any opinions of what we think. You can’t think about history without knowing its essential details. And if we don’t know essential details, what do we have to remember?

The millennia-old tradition of education was that children go to grammar school to memorize—history, grammar, languages, literature, scientific and mathematical facts—until the age of twelve. At twelve, having reached the age of reason, they begin their true education. But that education is based upon the foundation of everything built before.

On this day in 1809, a great man of American history was born in a log cabin in Kentucky. He was a poor farmer’s son, and his life grew terribly hard when his beloved mother, Nancy Hanks, died at age 34 of poisoned milk. But his step-mother, the determined Sarah, encouraged him to read, and insisted that he educate himself. And read he did—whatever he could find—after a grueling day of manual labor, by the fire light. His speeches and letters reflect how deeply he internalized the great literature of his time, how influenced he was by the Psalms, by Shakespeare, by Milton, by the ancient Greeks. He walked miles to borrow—and return—books. He read widely and deeply, and he memorized. Today, if we have any sense, we look back and honor him for his righteousness, his valor, his humanity, and his martyrdom to the cause of freedom. He was an honorable man, worthy of being honored.

I didn’t use a book to look this up this morning. I learned it in elementary school.

It makes me sad that so many Americans did not.